Is it too much to ask

Taking a deep look into the world through the broken parts of my heart is what l do everyday. The dreams were long shattered by the word l thought was from God yet it was from the deep dungeons of hell. I believed not what God said in the scriptures. I found a justification to prove what l was doing was right. I had to convince myself that what l saw in other people's marriages was going to happen to me as well. I overlooked what the word says about my identity and what l own. 

The fear of continuing to stand out made me to bow  down to standards which were not of God in the name of God l am tired. As Christians we always make a mistake of wanting to belong in a circle that is adverse to our beliefs . Life has more to offer